Life and Times of AlieMalie

When you lose all faith in the world, where do you go/what do you do to get it back?

I seem to have found another good person in Fargo, which is nice. Good politics partner.

That’s pretty much it for the happy, cheerful stuff. I’m rather pissy so we’re going to embrace the mood and let it all out, hopefully a purge will help”

I hate that my eyes are dull and lifeless. I smile and it doesn’t reach my eyes.

This last week was dull and rainy, definitely affecting my mood. The forecast for the next few days is supposed to contain sunshine, so hopefully that will help. It didn’t help that with the fall back, even though the additional hour of sleep is nice, I’ll now be driving home from work in the dark. Previously, I would drive home in the dark, but that was because I’d stayed late at work – now, It’s dusk by 5 and it just sucks. I’m going to have to take mental health breaks to get my daily doses of vitamin D.

Wow, really pissy mood tonight.

I hate that no matter what I do, I can’t lose weight. I dislike that I can’t turn my intensity off – as much as I try; it seems the only way is to drink and loosen up, but that’s not kosher in my world. Especially when I end up as I did on Friday night, a total embarrassment to myself. I hate that someone I work with scheduled a conference call for 7pm on a Sunday night and then let it run for two fucking hours. TWO HOURS, folks, on a Sunday night – talking about the same things over and over and over again. I am so mad that because of a couple of stupid decisions made by people when I was a child have resulted in me needing thousands of dollars in dental care every year of my life. I cannot stand that dental coverage isn’t included in my benefit plan so I pay all of it out of pocket. I hate that my government can’t get it’s act together and pass comprehensive health care reform with real teeth – it’ll have been a year on Wednesday that we elected Barack Obama and we STILL don’t have a bill.

Well, that felt good. Never fear, there are good things going on in my life – new friends, movement from my members of congress in the right direction, good work going on, vacation time on the horizon, feeling massively accomplished as I’ve had 22 days straight (minus JUST ONE) of media coverage in the state, my moods have been better, contrary to this post … I’m just needing to get it all out.

Hope everyone’s well. I was a gremlin/gargoyle/devil for halloween – perhaps I should wear my horns more often? It’s only appropriate.